Fuck it, I dont give a shit no more
leave this room, theres the door
i dun give  a shit if ur rich or piss broke poor
wait and see for whats in store
cuz I’ll never have enough, always want more

so you never have to pick up, i’ll never call again
what a dumb fucking thought, for us to be friends

dont think i dont reminice about them costco trips
and then there was montreal
where we had a ball, fucking niagara falls
alonguin park,  where we went canoeing

but now your prolly with your gf’s abusing
i never thought i could find this amusing
so every day i go out alone cruising
wishing that Azeem were with me just chillin

Yes, i’m sick of those long drives
i pass Ajax, Oshawa, and Coburg and I try
to keep the fucking water in my eyes, cuz its a very dark night
and some dumbass cut me off and I honked
almost smashed into a truck when he stopped

this is stupid, where is this mother fucking cupid
i’mma find this bitch and barry you quick
I’ll find ur arrow and shove it right up ur ass
cuz now its so hard to move on and let go of the past
and I wonder when I go how fast will this life flash

before my eyes, I get to the top then fall to my demise
Poof, boy am I surprised, in the end I failed no matter how hard I tried.

So this is what it’s like, to be on your own
In a brand new city, all alone

different roads, different streets
lost my cuz and let go of my girl in the same week
I guess you want to know how I feel
I got this success but alone it doesn’t feel real
Does it make you happier when you hear how hard it is for me to deal?
Do you want me to look worse to decrease my appeal
If I told you I was miserable, would that be happy for you to hear

Would it be music to your ears?
I listen to myself vent, and its really not like me
It’s actually quite sad, pretty disgusting
This is all new, exactly what I feared
Still, I suppose I must persevere

its 4:18 am, I couldn’t sleep
thoughts of you start to creep
into my head
so I try to put some 2pac on instead
but i realize i didn’t transfer it to this Hard drive
cant’ beleive your gone still feels like a damn lie
and i’m afraid to lie down and my back hurts
so i google the good die young sung by your idol 2pac
see a photo of him with his glasses and i sit here trying to write a rap
Azeem, you don’t understand how much i still need you
i got so many tough decisions ahead of me, who do i talk to
who do I greive to, shit man we was both in the same insane situation too
this is so unfair, i made a prayer, but when i opened my eyes you still  weren’t there, so i continue to stare at the glare of this lcd screen
and oh the irony, Napolean had also sung this song you see
the good die young and napolean was going to come
infact he did come, the same day we bought you back in that casket
and its madness cuz i know you would’ve wanted to see a member of the outlaws trying to teach the kids to stay away from drugs and love Allah
he didn’t need to preach to you,
going straight to heaven cuz with your love we grew
and who knew a tragedy so bad but never thought it would happen to you
sometimes we feel like we need someone to accuse,
but its just an excuse
and we’re all hurting we persistantly refuse
and get mad instead of seeking refuge
and the weight on my shoulders seems so huge
but this i promise you i will try my best to, take care of everyone who loves you
R.I.P. Azeem

I sent this as three long ass txt messages to my cuzin after a recent breakup he went through.

This is madness.
Sadness overcomes me.
I’m fighting the world in the front seat but your girl was too weak to make it through to next week.
I know havoc she will wreak.
Let her speak.
You were the true one all along and now she will weep.
When she comes back, loneliness will overcome,
but life’s not a joke kid, relationship is more than just fun.
So when you see her just run
If you need help ask me, although I got no gun.

Just letting you know I feel your pain
but now you have less to lose and a lesson to gain
You kept your cool and you maintained and refrained

from lowering down to her level.
She’s the past kid, bury it!
I’ll grab the shovel
Yes, most girls are just trouble.

I cant believe she tried the jealousy card
Tried to wound you emotionally and that must be hard
But your too smart for that spoiled retart,
who was on your case and in your face from the very start.

One last thing before I go, you tell that Jess
She was blessed and lucky to even meet you.
Yes yes I bet the only emotion she will ever feel will be regret.

Globalize this!
When she sees it, say surprise Bitch
I think of you when I have to itch,
my balls.. can you believe how many times I called.

Riz.. Out.

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OOH CRAP, the rant I wrote about fido being broken

This weekend, me and three other co-workers made a plan to drive off to Sandusky, Ohio and visit Cedar Point. An amusment park with plenty of roller coasters. Here are some highlights from the trip, along with my top three rides.

1. City : Sandusky, Ohio – Smelly, ugly, and very gay. At night the smell of pollution filled our noses. They were some really weird pollen flying around everywhere, it looked like cotton candy. Or maybe the clouds had fallen out of the skies becuase of that digusting smell. In the entertainment side, head on downtown to hit a gay club and then you can visit a transvesite club if you wish. Retail wise however there are lots of plazas in the area including stores as Best Buy, Macy’s, Target and other sports/clothing stores.
2. The Hotel : Our days Inn smell almost as bad as the city smelled outside. The staff did not bother to clean our room after the first night, and most likely still has not cleaned it. There was a pool that was also poisoned with that same infectious cotton like pollen. There was supposed to be breakfast there, but the first day I went the lady was throwing out what little remained there. I did have orange juice both times. The beds were pretty small, and it doesn’t help when all my co-workers snore like bears. Thank God for my MP3 player which helped drown out the noise. The hallways of the inn looked like a dorm room from a small city college.
3. The Park :
   • The Bad :
   • I didn’t like the overall design. It was far from breathtaking.
   • There was no organization in the park at all in terms of signage anywhere.
   • No separating themes giving the park an organized structure, it seemed chaotic at best.
   • Flying Pollen, in our mouths while yelling on roller coasters near trees. There was honestly too much of that crap everywhere.
   • Old Mascot (Snoopy). Not really any dedicated section for kids.
   • Mist Spraying fans… that don’t work.
   • The Good :
   • Maverick, Top Thrill Dragster, Millenium Force, The Wicked Twister, Raptor, Demon Drop, and even Snake River Falls.
   • ICEE : That slush was addictive.
   • Lots of Parking and multiple entrances.
   • Staff from around the world. It was kinda cool how the staff was literally imported from different sections of the world. Interesting summer job for them.
   • Short Lines compared to Wonderland. Wicked Twister barely even had a lineup.
   • Short delays on most rides.
   • Yummy Soft Cookie.

So, I frequent this website a lot. G4 Tech TV’s the Feed, mostly to pass time at work and learn about new games and such. Well I was on the website yesterday and they posted an image from a video game called Fallout 3.

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So the same website today informed me that this image made headline news on another website called This is London, but they weren’t reporting this as an image from a video game. They said that the image was from in Islamic extremist forum claiming that this is what America will look like after an attack.

A video game image is becoming fear invoking propaganda… what’s even more interesting is the comments from both sites. Some people say that Islam needs to be banned from “the West.” Now, because I’ve written a few papers on this this topic I found some ppl’s comments interesting.

The West will only stop Al Qaeda and radical Islam from achieving this aim when Islam is no longer permitted in the West. For too long, politicians around the world have been chanting the mantra that Islam is a religion of peace. It isn’t so lets stop pretending and start doing something about reducing its influence and spread.

- Adam, Harrow, UK

Oh boy, this terrorism thing is really giving Islam a bad name, arrhg now my brain is not working after reading such comments from such stupid people. Really, do i need to go over this again…

I’ll just redirect you to a previous venting post

http://rizzyc.wordpress.com/2005/03/06/mar-6-freestyle-president-bullshit/

or

http://rizzyc.wordpress.com/2006/03/16/muslims-attacked-in-hate-crimes-at-university-of-toronto-erindale/

My brand new Sharp Aquos!

OH MY GOD!

…are the words that escape my mouth when I see the quality of video on my new 46″ LCD HDTV. Here is the thing, I HAD/Have a rear projection HDTV playing at (1080i) which is pretty high, but ever since the HDMI port stopped working and because it just isn’t the same thing, (it’s rather old) the quality difference between the 52″ rear projection and the LCD is ASTONISHING to say the least.

Here is how I would describe it… it’s like some one took out my eyeballs and then washed them with a special solution and then tweaked the focus to make sure I can see everything clearly. LIKE NEW EYEBALLS.

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So I got a good deal so I jumped on it. So far I hooked it up upstairs to please my mom for a few days, but once i get about four strong enough friends to come help me move my monstrosity 52″ upstairs that beauty Sharp is going down in my basement where I will game in HD all day long!

Coincidentally my uncle purchased a new 46″ Samsung LCD HDTV (also a thing of beauty) and when he brought it home he was shocked at the horrible picture quality (not the same as in store, my tv looks better than the store cuz they were playing some nasty low def shit on it) of his low def satellite dish, ha ha ha, I told him.. you NEED an HD SOURCE to get the same quality picture, then i suggested the PS3 ha ha ha.