Fuck it, I dont give a shit no more
leave this room, theres the door
i dun give a shit if ur rich or piss broke poor
wait and see for whats in store
cuz I’ll never have enough, always want more
so you never have to pick up, i’ll never call again
what a dumb fucking thought, for us to be friends
dont think i dont reminice about them costco trips
and then there was montreal
where we had a ball, fucking niagara falls
alonguin park, where we went canoeing
but now your prolly with your gf’s abusing
i never thought i could find this amusing
so every day i go out alone cruising
wishing that Azeem were with me just chillin
Yes, i’m sick of those long drives
i pass Ajax, Oshawa, and Coburg and I try
to keep the fucking water in my eyes, cuz its a very dark night
and some dumbass cut me off and I honked
almost smashed into a truck when he stopped
this is stupid, where is this mother fucking cupid
i’mma find this bitch and barry you quick
I’ll find ur arrow and shove it right up ur ass
cuz now its so hard to move on and let go of the past
and I wonder when I go how fast will this life flash
before my eyes, I get to the top then fall to my demise
Poof, boy am I surprised, in the end I failed no matter how hard I tried.
shit, i need some inspiration
divinely insight to help me with the preparation
cuz alone in this world we come
and alone from this world we go
so doesn’t matter if your death is quick or slow
learn to live with yourself. . . and grow
you heathen, its myself i must believe in
and hell, i’m on my own I can commit treason
but i got no reason, i was always smart but now god has blessed me with success
so i can huff and buff and blow your house down in just one breath
why have i been tripping
all along its just these words I was needin
cuz without them, its as if I were bleedin
never been alone before so it felt hard breathin
fuck air, its fire that i’m breathin
cuz i’m like a fire breathin dragon
and i know i’m worth havin
so once i get out we’ll see whose not grabbin
and if not hell i’ll be kidnappin
this is ottawa a whole new city
but unlike rihanna i dont got my whole team with me
forget it, none of y’all can even think this deep
and if I can take this cold dont worry, I can take this heat
so I’ll light a fire up under your seat if you proceed to mistreat
and i’ve been fasting, so the whole day I had nothign to eat
when I go home i’ll try and butcher some meat, but I prefer my greens
Cuz i’m ok but I could be a bit more lean
It’s obscene, how you think you can understand what I mean
the way your looking at me it and pretend you’ve seen what I’ve seen
And its true, you would have to walk a mile in my feet at least
I’m writing without a clue, empty stomach hoping for a feast
Yeah, its tough, i’ll admit some times
thats when I return to my rhymes
simple yet soothing, i play music in the mornign while shaving
i got no curtains yet so you might see me bathing
I still dont got a handle on this life
still getting pressured to find a wife
so close to give up i’m like, if everyone is wrong who must be right
i’ll be like ____ and get caught for prowl by night
So this is what it’s like, to be on your own
In a brand new city, all alone
different roads, different streets
lost my cuz and let go of my girl in the same week
I guess you want to know how I feel
I got this success but alone it doesn’t feel real
Does it make you happier when you hear how hard it is for me to deal?
Do you want me to look worse to decrease my appeal
If I told you I was miserable, would that be happy for you to hear
Would it be music to your ears?
I listen to myself vent, and its really not like me
It’s actually quite sad, pretty disgusting
This is all new, exactly what I feared
Still, I suppose I must persevere
its 4:18 am, I couldn’t sleep
thoughts of you start to creep
into my head
so I try to put some 2pac on instead
but i realize i didn’t transfer it to this Hard drive
cant’ beleive your gone still feels like a damn lie
and i’m afraid to lie down and my back hurts
so i google the good die young sung by your idol 2pac
see a photo of him with his glasses and i sit here trying to write a rap
Azeem, you don’t understand how much i still need you
i got so many tough decisions ahead of me, who do i talk to
who do I greive to, shit man we was both in the same insane situation too
this is so unfair, i made a prayer, but when i opened my eyes you still weren’t there, so i continue to stare at the glare of this lcd screen
and oh the irony, Napolean had also sung this song you see
the good die young and napolean was going to come
infact he did come, the same day we bought you back in that casket
and its madness cuz i know you would’ve wanted to see a member of the outlaws trying to teach the kids to stay away from drugs and love Allah
he didn’t need to preach to you,
going straight to heaven cuz with your love we grew
and who knew a tragedy so bad but never thought it would happen to you
sometimes we feel like we need someone to accuse,
but its just an excuse
and we’re all hurting we persistantly refuse
and get mad instead of seeking refuge
and the weight on my shoulders seems so huge
but this i promise you i will try my best to, take care of everyone who loves you
R.I.P. Azeem
I sent this as three long ass txt messages to my cuzin after a recent breakup he went through.
This is madness.
Sadness overcomes me.
I’m fighting the world in the front seat but your girl was too weak to make it through to next week.
I know havoc she will wreak.
Let her speak.
You were the true one all along and now she will weep.
When she comes back, loneliness will overcome,
but life’s not a joke kid, relationship is more than just fun.
So when you see her just run
If you need help ask me, although I got no gun.
Just letting you know I feel your pain
but now you have less to lose and a lesson to gain
You kept your cool and you maintained and refrained
from lowering down to her level.
She’s the past kid, bury it!
I’ll grab the shovel
Yes, most girls are just trouble.
I cant believe she tried the jealousy card
Tried to wound you emotionally and that must be hard
But your too smart for that spoiled retart,
who was on your case and in your face from the very start.
One last thing before I go, you tell that Jess
She was blessed and lucky to even meet you.
Yes yes I bet the only emotion she will ever feel will be regret.
Globalize this!
When she sees it, say surprise Bitch
I think of you when I have to itch,
my balls.. can you believe how many times I called.
Riz.. Out.
OOH CRAP, the rant I wrote about fido being broken
